Let's do it.

I'm broke, broken words softly spoken

A token of gratitude?

Its awoken the fact that I failed as an adult. 

That I am here with tears rolling through my face while, I'm scrolling through my bank history asking...

Where did I go wrong?

Why ask questions when nobody cares, when all that matters is progress and you are at a stand still? 

I found peace and calm and almost washed away the insanity of long graveyard shifts

Should've saved the shooting stars I saw there for myself but I lost track of those like I lose track of everything

I guess I'll keep trying cause it's illegal to give up...

But I can't pour kindness in the gas tank,

Sign off bills with thank yous.

I just wanted to be normal

Oh god I just wanted to be normal

but normalcy is a fallacy, and as I check back in with reality 

I am surrounded

By the mass madness manifested by a flawed mind...

I guess I'll swallow some pills so I can call it a night...

What a time to be alive...Living too Fast but Dying

It's weird knowing

That I am chambering content, I just don't have enough that I feel ready to pull the trigger.

Birthday Post

No I'm not dead, I got caught up in a lot.
I got a bunch of stories I could tell.
But I think I'll just use this blog as my white board where I can keep my stupid poetry.
Enjoy.
I wrote this one when I was 18 and now here I am at 23. I don't think the 18 year old me would even believe all that I have been through. I thought I was better then what I am now. But what I am now, is better then the 18 year old me, and more importantly way better then what I expected.


What happened to the old TV?
You know where I loved you and you loved me
Where we were a happy family
And not people getting punched in the face on MTV
When facts roll most from comedy central
Where is the straight talk express
When all you are really doing is weaving around this mess?
Now hey I know I am only 18
With a slightly darker then normal complexion so people group me
With the cocaine snorting Charlie Sheen’s
But
I know I am different
Even if I am not the best
All this hate in the world though is truly what I detest
Trying to be the best of me
When the rest of people look at me and see something
Non-existent
Some people judge me for what I am not
And I know right now I am complaining because of what I don’t got
But please world leave me a message after the beep
Am I failing you world
Or are you failing me?
Do I need to stand stronger alone or rally people next to me?
Who will listen to the calls even though it might not be destiny?


Cheers even to those birds that don't drink
Waldo

Quick random sentence...

Its rather odd, always a different face, a different name, a different tone. however it does choose to manifest I pray it do so soon...

What am I doing with my life...

In all honesty, I don't know anymore. Hate to sound grime but I suppose the title doesn't help but I go by Waldo and ever since I dropped out of college I haven't found what living has meant. While I'm at it I hate how dramatic that sounds but it fits. I went into college as a psychology major and dropped out due to emotional issues. Now I don't know what I want, and now I just want to document the journey, regardless of how good or bad it is.

I guess I should explain why I am doing this a little more then that though. I recently decided to take a hiatus on the last thing from my teenage years that I loved. That was volunteering and working with a high school robotics team. Now I have this massive void of time where I once committed to students that I need to fill; and I don't even know what I want to fill it with. Not that I may or may not even have a choice...

I mean I am growing up, I am 22, just because I want to do something doesn't mean reality will let me. So while I let the reality of the situation sink in and I have spare time, I might as well document whatever I have going on. Not that I know what I will even use this blog for.

I have experience with image manipulation, video editing, coding, spoken word. All those options and no real heavy interest in it.  

I mean what is the worst that could happen?

With much apathy
-Waldo